Been a long time since I wrote..
Started the new blog to get a fresh start & kinda regretting deleting my old one, but hey, what's done is done right? ^_^
It's been alot of changes since I last wrote.. Both good and bad but thats life ppl..
So lets get this started..
The reason I chose today to start it up again is coz I feel like venting a bit..
I'm feeling very low right now..
Been alot going on & I'm at the point where I need to get it all out and the best way for me to do that is by writing, so here I am..
I've been having some problems with a person I care alot about and I'm really trying to forget..
I knew it wouldn't be easy, but I really didn't think it was gonna be this hard..
I'm a very forgiving person at heart & can forgive most things..
But this??.. This is a new situation even for me & I've experienced ALOT in life for my age..
It hurts and it hurts really bad..
I said I was gonna give it one last chance and I'm a woman of my word so I'm standing by my word.. But for the first time in a long time or maybe even for the first time ever.. I don't know if I'm strong enough..
The pictures in my head, the mind videos, the thoughts of what was, the thoughts of "maybe" thats still a part of the persons nature.. THAT'S what scares me & what hurts..
I really do want it to work & I really really do think ppl deserve a new chance, but I can't help it.. It just hurts so much..
"I love u.. I really do & what scares me the most is that I love u this much already after such a short time & how much pain I've already have had to go thru coz of what you've done& said.."
I just hope that this is it.. that this is time you wake up, open you're eyes and realize that even tho I've given u chance after chance before.. This is the last chance you're ever gonna get..
Prove yourself.. Show me u can change, that you wanna change..
Not just for the moment, but every hour of every day.. Prove yourself
Not just to me, but to yourself most of all..
Okay enough is enough.. An2k N Ako.. But I promise.. I'm back this time & back for good
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Song of the day:
Nina - Someday
